what meko wants, meko shall get

the krem has made a request and so i shall update for the first time since i cant really remember... but here goes -- mostly a whiny rant, sorry
it is summer, w0_ot!
nothing is really going on to be of any excitement, i work a few days a week at express because my other real job opportunities fell through and the rest of the time i read a lot and watch a lot of documentaries like the weird pursuit of intelligence kinda mutant that i am
On top of that i have been experiencing a lot of stress, a lot of things over the past few years that i have been building up all came out not too long ago and i had a mental breakdown for a day but i'm recovering and it kinda forced me to attempt to use this summer time to try to learn to relax some which is a good thing on top of that the most of my last stressors is the total uncertainty of what is to come that is bugging me -- just wondering a lot of what is to come, if i'll get a job, where i'll be, how i'll make the adjustment, and other things in my day to day life, etc etc a lot of things just seem very unknown and uncertain to me and i do not like that however, thats a part of life, and one thing i have learned to do well is take it as it comes and starting dealing with what i can, keep a clear head, and keep bobbing and weaving
other things are i worry a decent bit about my family, i do not live by any of them anymore so i'm not as easy to be able to visit or go to the home which i no longer have and i know how my brother and father get stressed out with their jobs and day to day life and i worry about my friends like the krem, i dont get to hear from as many people as often anymore so i need to start trying to get updates from them
i just gotta make it until november when CIV 4 comes out... oh baby i can make it --- i just need to have a girlfriend by then so she can entice me away from the computer every once in awhile to make me go to class in exchange for sex or something... otherwise i will truly be addicted
the rest of summer should turn out to be fun, once i find a nice little groove i should go out a little more and there will be a decent bit of partying, and in the fall i'll be moving into the kappa sig house here at ohio state, so it should be some good times and maybe i'll make a "fraternity files" type of column about life at the house to go with jeff's movie critic thing so i have something regular to talk about

well thats it for now, hang in there krem, i'll give you a call sometime in the next couple of days